Its been so long, I forgot my password!!

July 7, 2009 · Filed under Daily, Uncategorized

Hello the few and friendly readers of my blog. It’s been since what.. Christmas 2008 since I posted ?!?! Yikes..

Well.. although I have been unfaithful about keeping up this blog.. I still miss and Love you all.. and here’s the happs..

I tried to blog in Feb.. I really did.. I had to put my kitty Dodger down the beginning of Feb.. And anyone who knows me, and especially him, knows that was one of the hardest things I have had to do to in my life. Even now, as I write this 5 months later, I cry.  It destroyed a part of me, yet helped me to see that I would be willing to endure the pain of being humane to end HIS suffering.  I was glad I got to hold him in my arms,  and watch him go peacefully, knowing he knew he was loved whole-heartedly, rather than watching him suffer every day, and not be able to do anything.   He was 20 years old, ornery as hell, LOUD as Hell, and uncomfortable.. He had been through EVERYTHING major in my life Kids, boys.. and I had been there for him through his.. Coyote attacks, hitting a car ( yes I said HE hit a car.. ran right into the door chasing after me), 2 eye surgeries ( foxtails behind the eye) going deaf, going partially blind.. I think he was even run over by a bicycle.. He is now at rest, and here with me again… I had him stuffed.. JUST KIDDING.. though y’all WOULD believe me huh? I did have him cremated and brought home.

OK Hopefully that concludes the Depressing portion of this blog..

I have moved to a different position at PCL, and I like it still.. it’s challenging, and I feel like I can never move fast enough, or do anything right.. but that’s what work’s supposed to be right.. RIGHT?!?! (just agree with me someone.. anyone.. )

The Kids are together, and back with me during school year(s) It will take some adjustment, and perseverance.. but if we stay a team, we can do it.  It’s been a battle, and as long as they are happy.. I am looking to get Kat into voice lessons for herself, and Choir. She just interviewed (and NAILED) a college Prep course last week..Kev is going to be a Senior this year, he is working on getting a job, and local college OMG the boy is GRADUATING!! How OLD am I!! LOL..

**** this is me NOT mentioning my legal battles..

Speaking of battles.. I have, to date since Jan, I have lost 35 lbs.. yay only 70 more to go! AND I did it the ‘right way’ this time.. as opposed to the wrong way I did it before..  watching what I eat & being more active.. Walking the pups, and trying to get back into biking.. It feels good now that my Asthma is a little more controlled.. I have been able to cut out the monthly Prednisone. it got kind of scary there for a while, when every time I went into Urgent care, I had a Dr telling me that I have the severity of asthma that would kill me, and soon if they couldn’t get it under control.. Yah.. think positive people! I have been feeling & breathing better with some modifications, and realized that really.. I don’t want to die right now, it’s an easy way out for me.. but my poor kids & pups would be lost without me..

I AM GOING ON A CRUISE WITH MY KIDS  & FRIEND! Alaska, 10 day cruise.. I am positively GIDDY#1 I need a vacation like nobody’s business, #2 I need to be away with my kids.. and Alaska is someplace I have ALWAYS wanted to see.. I have a feeling they will be ditching me for the video arcades & teen spots.. but I have Katie S to accompany me on deck &  be a photo fiend with.. and I upgraded to a Balcony.. so we are going to ask for LOTS of blankets, and sleep outside.. I’m bringing my footed Jammies! I will be able to wear them by then!

My current animal count is 4 (counting the b@stard fish that won’t FRIGGING DIE!!). I love him too.. but again.. he seems to get irritated when I pet him.. huh.. go figure.. stoopid fish..Bella is getting back in shape with me and is back to a svelte 86 lbs.. Chief we have agreed is a night time fridge raider.. I feed him less than Bells, he is more active and though he is still a sexy beast.. he’s a bit on the pudgy side.. just sayin’s all.. not trying to be mean, he may eat his feelings and insecurities.. he was appropriately doped up for July 4th, and is still a little shell shocked.. don’t you even THINK of leaving him outside alone..

I am still looking for a house.. and right nowthere is nothing out there…. Lake Elizabeth has some GORGEOUS homes in my price range.. Problem is.. Longer to get home, not within walking distance for the kids from School,  and wildfires. because I would be the dumbass who HAS to go save her animals, and whomp into the middle of a fire. Sure it has a golf course close, but.. I don’t play golf.. and there IS a lake.. but.. I sure ain’t swimmin in it :| things live there.. eew.

I have contemplated selling my dirt bike, but I can’t part with it.. I need someone to go ride/camping with..I loved riding my Dirt bike, the crowd just kinda fell apart.. So.. someone out there needs to get a dirtbike, and a family so we can camp, and ride.. pretty please?

OK, I think I got all the topics.. Dodger, Kids, Dogs, weight/Medical, job, dirt bike

My man.. no public comment on..I’m.. uh.. I.. Ya.. no comment :) *sigh*(likes him though)

thats it for now Have a great one!

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THE ANIMALS’ SAVIOR

April 12, 2009 · Filed under Uncategorized

I looked at all the caged animals in the shelter…the cast-offs of human society.I saw in their eyes love and hope, fear and dread, sadness and betrayal. And I was angry.’God,’ I said, ‘this is terrible! Why don’t you do something?’God was silent for a moment, and then He spoke softly. ‘I have done something,’ He replied. ‘I created YOU.’”- Jim Willis

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Merry Christmas 2008

December 25, 2008 · Filed under Uncategorized

Hello all and Merry Christmas to all! I actually DID send out ‘my version’ of Christmas cards (via e-mail) and I hope all my friends and family got them! If I forgot anyone.. Check your spam / junk mail folders THEN write me and let me know that I mussed up your e-mail addy & send me the corrections.

Christmas Thoughts:
Well, Christmas seems to get more and more lackluster, I remember when I Loved to decorate, and wrap, and all the little presentation things that one fills their holiday and space with.. and now, it sees like such an under appreciated chore. Was it that I stopped appreciating, or let myself get too busy to care, lost my ’space’, or that others seemed to lose the appreciation and awe so.. it uninspired me. So much to do over holidays, and so much on my mind……Anyway, I have wished the last couple of years that we decorated more, and made a bigger deal of Christmas, had more spirit, but we didn’t.

I did go to Family’s on Christmas Eve, and got to see my cousins, and my aunts and uncles, nieces and nephews.. some like me, some don’t, some think they are better than everyone (i got sneered at when i collected cans from the trash to RECYCLE.. WWHHAAAATT?!?!?) but I could care less. I went to see my family, good bad or ugly. Because you never know when it will be the last time you see them, and when it comes to family, I am all about no regrets.

For Christmas I got myself the gift of Organization. I got me a cute little Blackberry curve (used an upgrade so I ended up paying less than 1/2 price than what it was.. cuz am CHEAP :) ). I STILL haven’t imported my phone numbers over ( seems I have to go to a Verizon store to port them over (grrr) because I can’t just transfer them from my enV.. and the reason this bothers me.. well.. thank you all for the Christmas wishes. and i had to look EVERYONE up.. *sigh* just kidding. I Love my Blackberry already though, but kind of wish there was an easier way to add the addresses and information I need. Of course there may be, I just didn’t read the manual.:))

ANYHOO back to my Lifetime movies, and Wine.. hope everyone is having or had a safe and Merry Christmas!!

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My B Day..almost

December 10, 2008 · Filed under Uncategorized

Tis the darn season.. I am getting another year older, oh yay.. and am wondering where all my well laid plans.. more like my ‘well imagined hopes’ for my life have taken me.. I guess I can currently envision myself as a construction zone right now.. still..I’m  awesome..(do you have any IDEA how long it has taken me to build up to such confidence?)

Upon recap of my 34th year, I detail some of my finer accomplishments..

In January, I started as a temp at Princess cruises.. which i was skeptical about because of all the bad lipservice I had heard.. of course.. me being the contrary woman I am..I LOVED it ..

June- I was hired on as a permanent Princess employee YAY!!! A full time permanent job with benefits , and people I like, and a company I like, and yay!!

August-health benefits Kat’s 80’s b day party

September- some time during this month i decided i REALLY need to start dating. Really.. I mean, it may be too many steamy romance novels, orit may be the fact I have been single a

October-I met Emily my daughter’s psychotic friend. and wow. She is a little something ’special’..Halloween was good.. did the Lombardi ranch thing with my kids & my sister’s kids.. it was good.. Halloween night, it was dark &  quiet, went to the neighbors house again, and hung out with them.. I hadn’t for a while, and actually really missed them, her 1 year sobriety is in Dec, and I could not be more proud of her, seriously, she is a trooper, and had to face a lot to get to where she is..Kudos Karen!

Nov- I finally had my endoscopic sinus surgery, AHHHHHH.. AIR… breathing good….Had to make an emergency trip to Hollyweird to get my daughter and the Blob.. I mean ‘EMILY’s’ Twilight tour tickets.. Yah if my girl didnt rock so much.. she would have had NO chance!GOD i LOVE my kids!!speaking of.. The day before Thanksgiving,  the kids’ dad & I had a mediation in Santa Monica, and came to a partial agreement on some custody changes. It is a work in progress but at least it has progressed..I ‘hosted’ thanksgiving dinner at the house, which I consider a success, because the house didn’t burn down, there were no family tussles, Sis & I shopped with the girls, came back & she did most cooking while I did the cleaning, and some cooking.. as a bonus..I got to hang out with my sister (and drink 2 bottles of wine).

Bringing us to December.. aahhh the sweet smell of December.. I think..started off with a sniffle..went to Kaiser for an asthma attack, and found out I had bronchitis..um.. OOOKKKAAYYY.. LOVE my pain tolerence (sarcasm).. so out of work a few days.. then the 6th went to visit my FIRST EVER PRINCESS CRUISE SHIP.. the Sapphire Princess.. can we say Beautiful? I have been on a Carnival ship, that was beautiful, and  Royal Carribean cruise ship, the Monarch of the seas that was beautiful, and the Sapphire,  was smaller, but packed quite a punch. Most impressed by the balconies.. wow.. ok that was the 6th..came ome and found out we werwe sitting for my sisters kids.. Screech and Cam.. I dont know when it happened.. but I am partial to those 2 kids too.. ug what a sucker (=)) .. so spent most of the day online playing, and relaxing.. then the 8th.. DECEMBER THE 8TH 2008.. the day I turn(ed) 35 . I woke up to my dog Bella telling me i hit snooze too many times.. and she was going to gently remind me to wake up and feed her poor starving self..  so, her delicate almost 80 lb tank -ass planted her paw on my chest, and stood.. whining.. so she lived, and got fed.. when my phone beeped from a new text message, I was hoping, and plesantly surprised it was Sesly.. my baby Sesly. I love hers, wishing me a happy B day. I found my ‘Casual day free pass sticker’ and got ready for work.. now if you think there is NOT a point to this story.. you are WRONG.. long and wordy it may be. but dammit.. as of today, I have lost 22 lbs.. and went down a size.. I fit into a pair of jeans I couldnt fit into for OVER A YEAR. I wore them all day and did not need oxygen ONCE…

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no, Seriously

November 14, 2008 · Filed under Uncategorized

Had my surgery last Thursday the 6th.. my Sinus surgery.. no, no don’t get your damn hopes up.. nothing cosmetic was done.

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it was a Quick surgery, the bloody aftermath was a little unexpected, but that healed quickly too.

that was my ‘Big news’ Now onto random crap:

I read the full twilight series and I LOVE it! I REALLY wanted to take Kat to see the movie when it comes out the 21st.. but she is with her Dad, and with everything else going on,  I figure not to further aggravate the powers that be, and I can make it up to her. she now has 3 twilight shirts, and the computer is LOADED down with videos and pics of the movie..I myself really want to see it!! she should be pretty easy to shop for for Christmas this year. lol

My Son has found a new game that he really likes, he saved, and sold, and worked for it and now.. he has it. it’s Little Big Planet.. I of course havent played it yet.. he keeps telling me he cant figure out how to play 2 player.. I am SO going to try to play this weekend while he is gone!

My Financial University class is.. well.. going.. I missed the last 2 Saturdays because of a horrid headache (i couldnt take any advil because of the surgery) and then the bleeding, and pain kept me from the next week’’s class.. So this week I really want to and HAVE to go.

Halloween went off without a hitch, had actually a nice quiet evening at the neighbors, they had a Halloween party, and a lot of people didn’t show, so it was nice to sit and catch up with them.

Dogs are good, wonderful, beautiful:

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and that’s it.. i am tired, and got another Steamy book I am really interested in reading.. so.. later

Comment or contact me!! I would love to hear from y’all!

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Thursday 11.13.08

November 13, 2008 · Filed under Uncategorized

**SIGH**

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Bow Wows and Meows 10.12.08

October 12, 2008 · Filed under Daily

I attended this year’s Pet Fest/Adoption event Bow Wows and Meows today. and like all other years, it was awesome. I really wish I had my kids this year as I missed the “AWWW… MOM… HOW CUTE… CAN WE GET ONE??”

The atmosphere was relaxed and friendly, and more importantly, Kid AND pet friendly. I should have taken pics, and I really regret not, but here are the pics I DID take.. can you guess what they are of?

So anyway, we had a great time, and I think it is a wonderful cause, and I am looking to possibly volunteer next year. I cannot think of any better cause.. maybe next year, there will be less foreclosures, and more homes for these homeless animals to go to.If not, then everyone i know is getting a damn animal for Christmas.. From Tennessee, to Utah. to Canada.. Happy x mas, here is a puppy.. if you re Jewish, Happy Hanukkah, you get a cat a day. all FIXED no irresponsible breeding..

Ok .. anyway.. I won a Custom Pet Energy Photo from Art on a Wing ok to some it may look Odd, but i am SUPER curious about stuff like this. And I get a pic of my pets.. This may not have been something  would have done for myself, but I am diggin I won it. REALLY happy I won it. I am just concerned that it will change my pets.. and hey are all perfect the way they are.

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it’s been so LONG since I have written

September 23, 2008 · Filed under Daily

Ok.. so WHYis it all my posts start with a off handed apology..

anyway it HAS been a while.. and i think some things have changed.. maybe?

Stalker has not called me or tried to contact me since that night.. YAAAAAAAAAAY

Custody is still not resolved.. BOOOOOO

I haven’t adopted any more animals.. YAAAAYY.. yet…BOOOOO lol

I am still employed & have medical insurance.. BIG TIME YAAAYYYY

i am still single.. (a hesitant) woo hoo..

I have been sticking to my ’saving money’ thing YYAAAYYYY

i got sick and was put back on prednisone.. BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

i watered my cacti and succulents after 3 weeks.. YYAAAYY

I am still smoking occassionally.. BOOOOOOOOO

I am now the proud single parent of a 14 & SIXTEEN year old.. YAAAYYY.. wait.. um.. ??????

my dogs need a bath BADLY..  STINKY BOOOOOO

i managed to organize, and clean out 3 boxes of crap & a drawer FULL of receipts.. YAAAYYYAAAYYYAYY

STILL do not have a fence for my little pups around the yard.. BOOOOOOOOO

Got some plants together for the Garage sale ….. YAYYYYYYY

we are HAVING a garage sale.. YYYYAAAAYYYYYYY!!!

Aside from that.. I got an offer on my dirt bike.. not a monetary offer.. just a ‘if you want i will take it off your hands’ offer..I am not sure how i feel about that.. I haven’t ridden in a WHILE.. but still.. it’s MY dirt bike I have built up dreams of freedom down an open road & hitting some jumps & CRASHED on that dirt bike.. and i would rather get an enduro Kit & ride it, or have one of my kids ride it.. selfish? I dunno.. it’s paid off & I have to list it as an asset in the custody.. so I am not even sure of it’s Garage sale value, or my truck’s Garage Sale value for that matter.. and I LOOOOVE my truck.. Dodge goes NOWHERE

I am taking a financial course.. and I have spending plans for my saved NOT emergency money.. I was told to have 1000. in emergency money in my bank by a months time.. and to try to get 5,000.00 emergency dollars as an emergency fund ONLY in 3-6 months time.. coming from someone who is not used to saving.. that is a lot of dang cash.. but i am going to try. It’s all for security right?

so.. WHY can’t I just MARRY rich & Secure??….wait.. or one or the other.. crap.. then I would have to date right? .. shit.. Well, i guess it would not be an issue unless the guy I date has kids too, or understands kids.. teenagers.. they take a lot of time and usually some money.. and are TOTALLY worth it. I love my Kids… and since i haven’t dated in YEARS.. I guess i would have to date.. Is it hard? Do they expect you to be smart, funny, charming..I forgot…. and I am SO not good at being something I am not.. are there still Pen Pals? maybe I can start that way….

ANYWAY.. the moral of this Story is I am happy with what I have.. no matter the light it is seen in.. I am Proud SO proud of my kids & a little less  proud of my life.. I am doing good.. I still wish i didn’t have the shyness & the fears when it comes to people.. but.. I like my life.. I love my friends.. no petty daily dramas, and I wish i could do more for their contentment at times…. I work & love my job.. I have goals, and plan to see them carried out.. I want to ride my bike to work daily.. And if anyone wants to volunteer to help me come clean up and do some Heavy duty tree trimming, some fencing {not as in swords play, though I have those too} and can help do chores around a house that is neglected, but Loved… That is how I have been.

anyway.. Life as we know it is good.. until the next time.. LOL

Go play your DS..

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If It Should Be

September 6, 2008 · Filed under Powerful Words..

IF IT SHOULD BE THAT I GROW WEAK

AND PAIN SHOULD KEEP ME FROM MY SLEEP,

THEN YOU MUST DO WHAT MUST BE DONE

FOR THIS LAST BATTLE CANNOT BE WON.

YOU WILL BE SAD I UNDERSTAND,

DON’T LET GRIEF THEN STAY YOUR HAND.

FOR THIS DAY MORE THAN ALL THE REST,

YOUR LOVE FOR ME MUST STAND THE TEST.

WE’VE HAD SO MANY HAPPY YEARS,

WHAT IS TO COME CAN HOLD NO FEARS,

YOU’D NOT WANT ME TO SUFFER SO,

THE TIME HAS COME TO LET ME GO.

TAKE ME WHERE MY NEED THEY’LL TEND,

AND PLEASE STAY WITH ME UNTIL THE END.

HOLD ME FIRM AND SPEAK TO ME.

UNTIL MY EYES NO LONGER SEE.

I KNOW IN TIME THAT YOU WILL SEE,

THE KINDNESS THAT YOU DID FOR ME.

ALTHOUGH MY TAIL ITS LAST HAS WAVED,

FROM PAIN AND SUFFERING I’VE BEEN SAVED.

PLEASE DO NOT GRIEVE IT MUST BE YOU,

WHO HAS THIS PAINFUL THING TO DO,

WE’VE BEEN SO CLOSE, WE TWO, THESE YEARS

DON’T LET YOUR HEART HOLD BACK ITS TEARS.

FOR I AM NOW IN A BETTER PLACE,

AND WILL BE WAITING TO SEE YOUR HAPPY FACE.

SO WHEN YOU CROSS THAT FINAL BRIDGE,

LOOK FOR ME ….

I’LL BE STANDING NEXT TO THE FRIDGE

-Author Unknown

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AAAAHHHHH FRIDAY!!!!!

August 1, 2008 · Filed under Daily, Uncategorized

ok, ok it’s FRIDAY!! August 1st, Girl’s B Day,

So.. for My Daughter’s B-Day, my job is cool enough to let me take the morning off to take my kids out to breakfast. I REALLY LIKE MY JOB!!!

I got my 3rd ‘Official’ Paycheck..

I am OFFICIALLY COVERED BY INSURANCE after almost 9 months!! MEDICAL, Dental, Vision, Life, the F’n WORKS.. and OMG does it feel Fanfuggintastic!!

Katie S should be here tomorrow to start her 2 week long Feeding frenzy.. um I mean her 2 week long visit.. we ARE planning on walking, and riding to feeds.. er.. I mean meals.. definitely more active, my asthma is being a biotch right now, so i am back on the prednisone, but.. I am GONNA be good because I HAVE INSURANCE!!!

so, I am sure I will be posting pics of new cacti.. tantalizing food pics, probably some other landscape, drunken shutter clicks.. etc etc..

Oh, and HEY.. Guess who called!! AGAIN.. AFTER last time.. OMG!! SHUT UP ALREADY!!! I would laugh, but is no a funny…no a funny at all.. and honestly.. how pitiful is it that I NEVER answer.. yet the calls continue..

so, the pets are good…no new pics to post at this time.. note to self: MORE PET PICS..

ok, so I am going to ATTEMPT a new section called ‘new shiny things’ (name pending) as a basic review of all the new shit I have gotten, my reviews, thoughts, suggestions for use.. etc.

So stay tuned!!!

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