Roguebarb’s Weblog

Ok.. so WHYis it all my posts start with a off handed apology..

anyway it HAS been a while.. and i think some things have changed.. maybe?

Stalker has not called me or tried to contact me since that night.. YAAAAAAAAAAY

Custody is still not resolved.. BOOOOOO

I haven’t adopted any more animals.. YAAAAYY.. yet…BOOOOO lol

I am still employed & have medical insurance.. BIG TIME YAAAYYYY

i am still single.. (a hesitant) woo hoo..

I have been sticking to my ’saving money’ thing YYAAAYYYY

i got sick and was put back on prednisone.. BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

i watered my cacti and succulents after 3 weeks.. YYAAAYY

I am still smoking occassionally.. BOOOOOOOOO

I am now the proud single parent of a 14 & SIXTEEN year old.. YAAAYYY.. wait.. um.. ??????

my dogs need a bath BADLY..  STINKY BOOOOOO

i managed to organize, and clean out 3 boxes of crap & a drawer FULL of receipts.. YAAAYYYAAAYYYAYY

STILL do not have a fence for my little pups around the yard.. BOOOOOOOOO

Got some plants together for the Garage sale ….. YAYYYYYYY

we are HAVING a garage sale.. YYYYAAAAYYYYYYY!!!

Aside from that.. I got an offer on my dirt bike.. not a monetary offer.. just a ‘if you want i will take it off your hands’ offer..I am not sure how i feel about that.. I haven’t ridden in a WHILE.. but still.. it’s MY dirt bike I have built up dreams of freedom down an open road & hitting some jumps & CRASHED on that dirt bike.. and i would rather get an enduro Kit & ride it, or have one of my kids ride it.. selfish? I dunno.. it’s paid off & I have to list it as an asset in the custody.. so I am not even sure of it’s Garage sale value, or my truck’s Garage Sale value for that matter.. and I LOOOOVE my truck.. Dodge goes NOWHERE

I am taking a financial course.. and I have spending plans for my saved NOT emergency money.. I was told to have 1000. in emergency money in my bank by a months time.. and to try to get 5,000.00 emergency dollars as an emergency fund ONLY in 3-6 months time.. coming from someone who is not used to saving.. that is a lot of dang cash.. but i am going to try. It’s all for security right?

so.. WHY can’t I just MARRY rich & Secure??….wait.. or one or the other.. crap.. then I would have to date right? .. shit.. Well, i guess it would not be an issue unless the guy I date has kids too, or understands kids.. teenagers.. they take a lot of time and usually some money.. and are TOTALLY worth it. I love my Kids… and since i haven’t dated in YEARS.. I guess i would have to date.. Is it hard? Do they expect you to be smart, funny, charming..I forgot…. and I am SO not good at being something I am not.. are there still Pen Pals? maybe I can start that way….

ANYWAY.. the moral of this Story is I am happy with what I have.. no matter the light it is seen in.. I am Proud SO proud of my kids & a little less  proud of my life.. I am doing good.. I still wish i didn’t have the shyness & the fears when it comes to people.. but.. I like my life.. I love my friends.. no petty daily dramas, and I wish i could do more for their contentment at times…. I work & love my job.. I have goals, and plan to see them carried out.. I want to ride my bike to work daily.. And if anyone wants to volunteer to help me come clean up and do some Heavy duty tree trimming, some fencing {not as in swords play, though I have those too} and can help do chores around a house that is neglected, but Loved… That is how I have been.

anyway.. Life as we know it is good.. until the next time.. LOL

Go play your DS..