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Its been so long, I forgot my password!!

July 7, 2009 · Filed under Daily, Uncategorized

Hello the few and friendly readers of my blog. It’s been since what.. Christmas 2008 since I posted ?!?! Yikes..

Well.. although I have been unfaithful about keeping up this blog.. I still miss and Love you all.. and here’s the happs..

I tried to blog in Feb.. I really did.. I had to put my kitty Dodger down the beginning of Feb.. And anyone who knows me, and especially him, knows that was one of the hardest things I have had to do to in my life. Even now, as I write this 5 months later, I cry.  It destroyed a part of me, yet helped me to see that I would be willing to endure the pain of being humane to end HIS suffering.  I was glad I got to hold him in my arms,  and watch him go peacefully, knowing he knew he was loved whole-heartedly, rather than watching him suffer every day, and not be able to do anything.   He was 20 years old, ornery as hell, LOUD as Hell, and uncomfortable.. He had been through EVERYTHING major in my life Kids, boys.. and I had been there for him through his.. Coyote attacks, hitting a car ( yes I said HE hit a car.. ran right into the door chasing after me), 2 eye surgeries ( foxtails behind the eye) going deaf, going partially blind.. I think he was even run over by a bicycle.. He is now at rest, and here with me again… I had him stuffed.. JUST KIDDING.. though y’all WOULD believe me huh? I did have him cremated and brought home.

OK Hopefully that concludes the Depressing portion of this blog..

I have moved to a different position at PCL, and I like it still.. it’s challenging, and I feel like I can never move fast enough, or do anything right.. but that’s what work’s supposed to be right.. RIGHT?!?! (just agree with me someone.. anyone.. )

The Kids are together, and back with me during school year(s) It will take some adjustment, and perseverance.. but if we stay a team, we can do it.  It’s been a battle, and as long as they are happy.. I am looking to get Kat into voice lessons for herself, and Choir. She just interviewed (and NAILED) a college Prep course last week..Kev is going to be a Senior this year, he is working on getting a job, and local college OMG the boy is GRADUATING!! How OLD am I!! LOL..

**** this is me NOT mentioning my legal battles..

Speaking of battles.. I have, to date since Jan, I have lost 35 lbs.. yay only 70 more to go! AND I did it the ‘right way’ this time.. as opposed to the wrong way I did it before..  watching what I eat & being more active.. Walking the pups, and trying to get back into biking.. It feels good now that my Asthma is a little more controlled.. I have been able to cut out the monthly Prednisone. it got kind of scary there for a while, when every time I went into Urgent care, I had a Dr telling me that I have the severity of asthma that would kill me, and soon if they couldn’t get it under control.. Yah.. think positive people! I have been feeling & breathing better with some modifications, and realized that really.. I don’t want to die right now, it’s an easy way out for me.. but my poor kids & pups would be lost without me..

I AM GOING ON A CRUISE WITH MY KIDS  & FRIEND! Alaska, 10 day cruise.. I am positively GIDDY#1 I need a vacation like nobody’s business, #2 I need to be away with my kids.. and Alaska is someplace I have ALWAYS wanted to see.. I have a feeling they will be ditching me for the video arcades & teen spots.. but I have Katie S to accompany me on deck &  be a photo fiend with.. and I upgraded to a Balcony.. so we are going to ask for LOTS of blankets, and sleep outside.. I’m bringing my footed Jammies! I will be able to wear them by then!

My current animal count is 4 (counting the b@stard fish that won’t FRIGGING DIE!!). I love him too.. but again.. he seems to get irritated when I pet him.. huh.. go figure.. stoopid fish..Bella is getting back in shape with me and is back to a svelte 86 lbs.. Chief we have agreed is a night time fridge raider.. I feed him less than Bells, he is more active and though he is still a sexy beast.. he’s a bit on the pudgy side.. just sayin’s all.. not trying to be mean, he may eat his feelings and insecurities.. he was appropriately doped up for July 4th, and is still a little shell shocked.. don’t you even THINK of leaving him outside alone..

I am still looking for a house.. and right nowthere is nothing out there…. Lake Elizabeth has some GORGEOUS homes in my price range.. Problem is.. Longer to get home, not within walking distance for the kids from School,  and wildfires. because I would be the dumbass who HAS to go save her animals, and whomp into the middle of a fire. Sure it has a golf course close, but.. I don’t play golf.. and there IS a lake.. but.. I sure ain’t swimmin in it :| things live there.. eew.

I have contemplated selling my dirt bike, but I can’t part with it.. I need someone to go ride/camping with..I loved riding my Dirt bike, the crowd just kinda fell apart.. So.. someone out there needs to get a dirtbike, and a family so we can camp, and ride.. pretty please?

OK, I think I got all the topics.. Dodger, Kids, Dogs, weight/Medical, job, dirt bike

My man.. no public comment on..I’m.. uh.. I.. Ya.. no comment :) *sigh*(likes him though)

thats it for now Have a great one!

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THE ANIMALS’ SAVIOR

April 12, 2009 · Filed under Uncategorized

I looked at all the caged animals in the shelter…the cast-offs of human society.I saw in their eyes love and hope, fear and dread, sadness and betrayal. And I was angry.’God,’ I said, ‘this is terrible! Why don’t you do something?’God was silent for a moment, and then He spoke softly. ‘I have done something,’ He replied. ‘I created YOU.’”- Jim Willis

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Merry Christmas 2008

December 25, 2008 · Filed under Uncategorized

Hello all and Merry Christmas to all! I actually DID send out ‘my version’ of Christmas cards (via e-mail) and I hope all my friends and family got them! If I forgot anyone.. Check your spam / junk mail folders THEN write me and let me know that I mussed up your e-mail addy & send me the corrections.

Christmas Thoughts:
Well, Christmas seems to get more and more lackluster, I remember when I Loved to decorate, and wrap, and all the little presentation things that one fills their holiday and space with.. and now, it sees like such an under appreciated chore. Was it that I stopped appreciating, or let myself get too busy to care, lost my ’space’, or that others seemed to lose the appreciation and awe so.. it uninspired me. So much to do over holidays, and so much on my mind……Anyway, I have wished the last couple of years that we decorated more, and made a bigger deal of Christmas, had more spirit, but we didn’t.

I did go to Family’s on Christmas Eve, and got to see my cousins, and my aunts and uncles, nieces and nephews.. some like me, some don’t, some think they are better than everyone (i got sneered at when i collected cans from the trash to RECYCLE.. WWHHAAAATT?!?!?) but I could care less. I went to see my family, good bad or ugly. Because you never know when it will be the last time you see them, and when it comes to family, I am all about no regrets.

For Christmas I got myself the gift of Organization. I got me a cute little Blackberry curve (used an upgrade so I ended up paying less than 1/2 price than what it was.. cuz am CHEAP :) ). I STILL haven’t imported my phone numbers over ( seems I have to go to a Verizon store to port them over (grrr) because I can’t just transfer them from my enV.. and the reason this bothers me.. well.. thank you all for the Christmas wishes. and i had to look EVERYONE up.. *sigh* just kidding. I Love my Blackberry already though, but kind of wish there was an easier way to add the addresses and information I need. Of course there may be, I just didn’t read the manual.:))

ANYHOO back to my Lifetime movies, and Wine.. hope everyone is having or had a safe and Merry Christmas!!

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My B Day..almost

December 10, 2008 · Filed under Uncategorized

Tis the darn season.. I am getting another year older, oh yay.. and am wondering where all my well laid plans.. more like my ‘well imagined hopes’ for my life have taken me.. I guess I can currently envision myself as a construction zone right now.. still..I’m  awesome..(do you have any IDEA how long it has taken me to build up to such confidence?)

Upon recap of my 34th year, I detail some of my finer accomplishments..

In January, I started as a temp at Princess cruises.. which i was skeptical about because of all the bad lipservice I had heard.. of course.. me being the contrary woman I am..I LOVED it ..

June- I was hired on as a permanent Princess employee YAY!!! A full time permanent job with benefits , and people I like, and a company I like, and yay!!

August-health benefits Kat’s 80’s b day party

September- some time during this month i decided i REALLY need to start dating. Really.. I mean, it may be too many steamy romance novels, orit may be the fact I have been single a

October-I met Emily my daughter’s psychotic friend. and wow. She is a little something ’special’..Halloween was good.. did the Lombardi ranch thing with my kids & my sister’s kids.. it was good.. Halloween night, it was dark &  quiet, went to the neighbors house again, and hung out with them.. I hadn’t for a while, and actually really missed them, her 1 year sobriety is in Dec, and I could not be more proud of her, seriously, she is a trooper, and had to face a lot to get to where she is..Kudos Karen!

Nov- I finally had my endoscopic sinus surgery, AHHHHHH.. AIR… breathing good….Had to make an emergency trip to Hollyweird to get my daughter and the Blob.. I mean ‘EMILY’s’ Twilight tour tickets.. Yah if my girl didnt rock so much.. she would have had NO chance!GOD i LOVE my kids!!speaking of.. The day before Thanksgiving,  the kids’ dad & I had a mediation in Santa Monica, and came to a partial agreement on some custody changes. It is a work in progress but at least it has progressed..I ‘hosted’ thanksgiving dinner at the house, which I consider a success, because the house didn’t burn down, there were no family tussles, Sis & I shopped with the girls, came back & she did most cooking while I did the cleaning, and some cooking.. as a bonus..I got to hang out with my sister (and drink 2 bottles of wine).

Bringing us to December.. aahhh the sweet smell of December.. I think..started off with a sniffle..went to Kaiser for an asthma attack, and found out I had bronchitis..um.. OOOKKKAAYYY.. LOVE my pain tolerence (sarcasm).. so out of work a few days.. then the 6th went to visit my FIRST EVER PRINCESS CRUISE SHIP.. the Sapphire Princess.. can we say Beautiful? I have been on a Carnival ship, that was beautiful, and  Royal Carribean cruise ship, the Monarch of the seas that was beautiful, and the Sapphire,  was smaller, but packed quite a punch. Most impressed by the balconies.. wow.. ok that was the 6th..came ome and found out we werwe sitting for my sisters kids.. Screech and Cam.. I dont know when it happened.. but I am partial to those 2 kids too.. ug what a sucker (=)) .. so spent most of the day online playing, and relaxing.. then the 8th.. DECEMBER THE 8TH 2008.. the day I turn(ed) 35 . I woke up to my dog Bella telling me i hit snooze too many times.. and she was going to gently remind me to wake up and feed her poor starving self..  so, her delicate almost 80 lb tank -ass planted her paw on my chest, and stood.. whining.. so she lived, and got fed.. when my phone beeped from a new text message, I was hoping, and plesantly surprised it was Sesly.. my baby Sesly. I love hers, wishing me a happy B day. I found my ‘Casual day free pass sticker’ and got ready for work.. now if you think there is NOT a point to this story.. you are WRONG.. long and wordy it may be. but dammit.. as of today, I have lost 22 lbs.. and went down a size.. I fit into a pair of jeans I couldnt fit into for OVER A YEAR. I wore them all day and did not need oxygen ONCE…

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no, Seriously

November 14, 2008 · Filed under Uncategorized

Had my surgery last Thursday the 6th.. my Sinus surgery.. no, no don’t get your damn hopes up.. nothing cosmetic was done.

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it was a Quick surgery, the bloody aftermath was a little unexpected, but that healed quickly too.

that was my ‘Big news’ Now onto random crap:

I read the full twilight series and I LOVE it! I REALLY wanted to take Kat to see the movie when it comes out the 21st.. but she is with her Dad, and with everything else going on,  I figure not to further aggravate the powers that be, and I can make it up to her. she now has 3 twilight shirts, and the computer is LOADED down with videos and pics of the movie..I myself really want to see it!! she should be pretty easy to shop for for Christmas this year. lol

My Son has found a new game that he really likes, he saved, and sold, and worked for it and now.. he has it. it’s Little Big Planet.. I of course havent played it yet.. he keeps telling me he cant figure out how to play 2 player.. I am SO going to try to play this weekend while he is gone!

My Financial University class is.. well.. going.. I missed the last 2 Saturdays because of a horrid headache (i couldnt take any advil because of the surgery) and then the bleeding, and pain kept me from the next week’’s class.. So this week I really want to and HAVE to go.

Halloween went off without a hitch, had actually a nice quiet evening at the neighbors, they had a Halloween party, and a lot of people didn’t show, so it was nice to sit and catch up with them.

Dogs are good, wonderful, beautiful:

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and that’s it.. i am tired, and got another Steamy book I am really interested in reading.. so.. later

Comment or contact me!! I would love to hear from y’all!

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Thursday 11.13.08

November 13, 2008 · Filed under Uncategorized

**SIGH**

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AAAAHHHHH FRIDAY!!!!!

August 1, 2008 · Filed under Daily, Uncategorized

ok, ok it’s FRIDAY!! August 1st, Girl’s B Day,

So.. for My Daughter’s B-Day, my job is cool enough to let me take the morning off to take my kids out to breakfast. I REALLY LIKE MY JOB!!!

I got my 3rd ‘Official’ Paycheck..

I am OFFICIALLY COVERED BY INSURANCE after almost 9 months!! MEDICAL, Dental, Vision, Life, the F’n WORKS.. and OMG does it feel Fanfuggintastic!!

Katie S should be here tomorrow to start her 2 week long Feeding frenzy.. um I mean her 2 week long visit.. we ARE planning on walking, and riding to feeds.. er.. I mean meals.. definitely more active, my asthma is being a biotch right now, so i am back on the prednisone, but.. I am GONNA be good because I HAVE INSURANCE!!!

so, I am sure I will be posting pics of new cacti.. tantalizing food pics, probably some other landscape, drunken shutter clicks.. etc etc..

Oh, and HEY.. Guess who called!! AGAIN.. AFTER last time.. OMG!! SHUT UP ALREADY!!! I would laugh, but is no a funny…no a funny at all.. and honestly.. how pitiful is it that I NEVER answer.. yet the calls continue..

so, the pets are good…no new pics to post at this time.. note to self: MORE PET PICS..

ok, so I am going to ATTEMPT a new section called ‘new shiny things’ (name pending) as a basic review of all the new shit I have gotten, my reviews, thoughts, suggestions for use.. etc.

So stay tuned!!!

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Had it with the past? A funny thing happened..

July 26, 2008 · Filed under RANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!, Uncategorized

Everyone has a ‘thing’ in their past, whether it is a habit, a mistake or something stupid they said or did.. maybe even a regret, or a person in their life that is a culmination of all the afore mentioned. These sometimes miserable things slowly fade into your past,and stop being relived with brutal clarity..day after day with feelings of hollow dread, or sickening ‘God what have I done & WHY did I let me do it!??!Bad me Bad ME! WHAT was i thinking’ and other self-defeatest / kickin your own ass, thoughts… Well, they SHOULD fade, they are less in your dreams and on the tip of your tongue when you awaken every morning. you grow, you get over it, you move on, you resolve your feelings, and chalk it up as a learning experience or life lesson.. everyone was (or should have been) young and stupid..some of us more than others

Now..y’all know me.. I have passionate dislikes, some more severe OCD tics, but unless you are an abuser of children or animals or LORD FORBID you mess with my babies..noone gets to mess with my babies…. I don’t hate.. I don’t get the urge to.. I don’t have it in me to hate someone for petty reasons.. life is too short to be tainted by simple hate..have a beer lol

But when someone from the past won’t stay in the past.. what then? Someone was so heartlessly cruel and threatening, went out of their way to be hurtful, and cause pain, and cause potential legal issues..now wants to share their joys with you.. 3 years too late, a LIFETIME too late..Yet the goodness in my soul wants me to be positive, I feel annoyance, borderline awe at the audacity, frustration, Panic & mystification.. and why the hell did they NOT ditch my #.. I ditched theirs.. Were they counting on the fact I would always be there for them. and if so.. what kind of person does that make ME? Is it any wonder why I haven’t put myself into dating, over being a single mom with kids? and WHY DO I care that they called.. because I pity them because it is expected for me to forgive? They undoubtedly chased off anyone who cared about them with their attitude leaving just me, an ex to pat them on the head & say ‘there there’ well.. No.. just No..

I may be fatter than I EVER have been in my life.. but I am not puking or panicked, I know i need to lose weight, be more active, but i don’t feel that people HATE me because I am fat.. and if they do.. fuck ‘em.. I have better people I know, and I know love me, appreciate me, miss me, and more importantly, treat me well. and THEY are good people.. DAMN good people.. and my Children, the reasons my heart beats, my ONLY job in life is to give them a better life. I cannot be more proud of who they have become. Ok, I will not gush on and on about my daughter singing a touching solo in a Talent show at a Jr High, and her remarkable self confidence, and beauty.. and my son’s levelheaded thoughts, and ‘make sense in a world that is ridiculous’ intelligence, and his unfailing finickiness when it comes to friends & who he will be around. Gawd they do me proud..

anyhow.. this is a RANT.. and classified as such.. have a good morning

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out with the old

July 8, 2008 · Filed under Uncategorized

Good eve boys and girls here is another much anticipated blog from your buddy Barb..

well.. it is Tuesday

that is it.. have a great night..

no, really folk (note the SINGULAR USE) I have been busy on several fronts

I went to my old neighbor’s (actually more family since we grew up…well got older… together.. place in Victorville to house/pet sit. I know it does not sound very exciting, but it was SO nice and peaceful! The weather was nice, the animals were good. All in all it was a nice weekend.

I felt like i looked nice today at work. speaking of work…I started my first official day at Princess Cruises as an actual Employee on June 16th. NO, you cannot get a discount..I don’t get discounts for a year.. hit me up in 2009..lol.. the BESTEST THING IN THE WORLD EVER… I get Benefits soon.. YAY!!! A steady job with people I like, medical benefits in sight.. I feel really good.. darn fine indeed.

with family and such matters.. My brother and part of his family are out for a visit from Tennessee. he came out to goto his 20th high school reunion for Saugus High. I was a little bummed that their step daughter didn’t come out, she’s a kick, but his youngest is funny too.. she is a bit afraid of me.. but really who wouldn’t be at 2 yrs old.. i am the loud, mean dog lady..I expect my dogs to obey.. why not children?

Yah.. have you MET my kids lol PERFECT teenagers.. lol

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Seems like they are getting further apart huh..

June 5, 2008 · Filed under Uncategorized · Tagged

Ok… i KNOW all of y’all are on pins and needles waiting ANXIOUSLY with bated breath for my next blog..

no?..

Oh, well.. I will continue to amuse myself by pretending to think so, got it?

Well it has been a couple weeks, and I cannot really think of anything SO exciting that has happened.. it’s been dogpark, Kids, cats, feedings, movies.. OH!! I went to the movies with my kids, and niece, and saw Ironman, I was kind of prepared to not like it.. but it was pretty good, not, run out and buy it because I really liked it THAT much ( like Transformers.. I REALLY liked Transformers)..but I laughed a couple times, and the kids enjoyed it as well..

Picking this back up almost a month later..

well.. haven’t been to the dog park since Chief was attacked (and not harmed) by a large Rottweiler named Thumper.. it isn’t so much why we have not gone..it has been busy in my world.. here are a few things..

I paid off my truck (not sure if i mentioned that before)

I just finally finished my profile AND application for Princess cruises to hire me directly. (cross your fingers for me)

Kat BEATBOXED with a friend to a soda song I am hoping to get good video of it soon.. OMG she is so RAD

Kev still has a mohawk, it’s too long.. Kev impresses me daily he is so random and quickwitted.. and has an awesome sense of humor..

i have been working on (and succeeding in) losing weight slowly, and steadily..

oh, yah.. my Daughter graduated 8th Grade.

my RT contact lens has a tear in it & it is my last pair.. and no medical insurance..

seeing that pic above makes me realize, I REALLY need a better bra.. sheesh.. and keep working on the weight thing..lol

I realized that at this juncture, i have 2 teenagers.. 2 HIGHSCHOOL students at 34.. 2 AWESOME, smart, honest, imaginative, morally intact, attractive, comedic kids.. am DAMN proud of them..

A week or so ago.. We saw a Squirrel in the middle of the street, a baby.. hit by a vehicle, and we stopped, pulled him out of the street, and took him home (smart, I Know..) it was young, it was in pain, and I ddin’t know how to help it.. I called the Animal Shelter and they picked her ( i think ) up, and i hope put her to sleep quick and painlessly..

MY BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER GRADUATED 8TH GRADE YESTERDAY JUNE 4TH!!!!

MY BABY GRADUATED

the brakes on my car need fixing..

I am still single :)

I have an appt on Monday to make the kids happy..

Dodger is still alive.. after 5 billion years.. I would swear he was petrified if he wasn’t still eating, drinking and shedding..

My Cactus, aloes, Euphorbias, Crassulas, and Haworthias are doing beautifully.. does anyone need an aloe? i have some.. heck, I will even ship..within reason…

Do you know that (per CNN News) there are over 1.1 MILLION homes that have been foreclosed on.. can you IMAGINE how many families that is.. how many Children suddenly have no homes, some can’t even go to school.. how many parents are left feeling helpless, insufficient, how many lives that have been destroyed? How many animals are abandoned, dumped at shelters.. it’s sick and appalling really..

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